man drinking is what i do when i feel bad and then drinking ALWAYS makes me feel worse bc 1 - it is a depressant and 2 - it makes my meds NOT work. I was drinking too much, but I have since got a handle on it bc i really can NOT take the depression. I am sick of being sad.
Food - meh. i eat. bc i can't not eat and still keep going and do this and function, but i find it annoying. food is annoying - buying it, fixin it, eating it. i am not focusing on my body too much but i kinda think it is bc i dont have the energy to spare. I will tell you that i think im too big and i don't like it but i feel like recovery is what i chose so im not gonna starve. sticking with it, bc i am too old to freak out my parents ya know - for one thing.
or that is where Im at at this moment. but i will tell you, alcohol is sooooooo tricky!! and this whole damn town is an enabler!!
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i do understand miles to go before you sleep...
i wonder how you are doing food and drink-wise. for me, trying times bring issues around my issues.
thinking of you!
man drinking is what i do when i feel bad and then drinking ALWAYS makes me feel worse bc 1 - it is a depressant and 2 - it makes my meds NOT work.
I was drinking too much, but I have since got a handle on it bc i really can NOT take the depression. I am sick of being sad.
Food - meh. i eat. bc i can't not eat and still keep going and do this and function, but i find it annoying. food is annoying - buying it, fixin it, eating it. i am not focusing on my body too much but i kinda think it is bc i dont have the energy to spare. I will tell you that i think im too big and i don't like it but i feel like recovery is what i chose so im not gonna starve. sticking with it, bc i am too old to freak out my parents ya know - for one thing.
or that is where Im at at this moment. but i will tell you, alcohol is sooooooo tricky!! and this whole damn town is an enabler!!
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