You ever feel like there are 23 million emotions coming in and you KNOW that whichever one you react to may very well make you appear ridiculous? So you are smashing down big giant tidal waves of emotion in order to like, pay the-about-to-get-cut-off-electric-bill, get back to work before break is up, walk the dog, brush teeth, find keys, and then go speak with this customer who is irate and rude for no real reason. That gets to me so much - dealing with total jerk-faces. So, this lady screamed at me on the phone yesterday at work. She was totally condescending and rude and I got completely totally upset. Really. Ruined my whole day. Still, I get angry thinking about it.... That incident totally propelled me downward into this spiraling thought process of "omg i am going to have to deal with horrible people forever even if i get another job or another job or another job or go back to school or even if i teach there are these people and they are out there and they are mean." I would rather be in a real life zombie horror movie than deal with the mundane every day jerkface, ya know? and i am nice! I am pretty committed to being Kind and Non Judgemental and Accepting and Non materialistic bc i think these things are important and I am TRYING to self actualize and *be the change i wanna see* and all that....But i find it to be very.veryveryveryveryDdDifficult. dif-DIFFICULT to exert CONTROL over my emotions.... even when i do breathing exercises. (yesIdo breathing exercises) Okay, but one thing is this:
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
-- Eleanor Roosevelt. and another one is this:
Rudeness is the weak man's imitation of strength.
-- Eric Hoffer
1 comment:
i hate rudeness.
i am very hormonal today and have lots of horrible feelings. i've shut myself in the house because i don't want to deal with the world and dont want the world to have to deal with me.
and i'm too cranky to say anything else but
i really like this track your on.
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